Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I'll color your world blue.

I am feeling pretty upset today. Nothing related to my weight loss or health. Other reasons I can't really post about here. I am thinking of making this blog locked so only people following can read so I can be more open. You never know who could find my blog...

What it comes down to is the feeling of being useless to a pretty big part of my life. I had to walk away for a bit today and just cry. I have this quote written on a post-it on my desk "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Well unfortunately I gave consent this morning. I am still feeling that way. Trying to give my self the internal pep talks but it's hard.

The main thing I keep telling myself is that next year at this time I'll be in a better place. That actually just made me think of another quote I love, "No matter how good or bad a situation is, it will change."

In other more positive news...

I am almost done with week 8 of C25K! I have one more 28 min. run and then I will have three 30 min. runs to finish off in week 9. I am so proud of myself for getting though this. Last year I did it for a few weeks and quit. This year I am seeing it though and even going to be doing two 5Ks in June! I also want to give a shout out to my friend Jen who is also doing it and nearing the end. We started at the same time and I think it's been a big help of us both pushing it through it and motivating each other.

So far my week points-wise has been good. I had a night snack last night which to be honest I almost forgot about. Kind of scary. I need to account for those points and move on. I believe come Saturday I will have 24 unused WAP and AP which is pretty sweet.

I weighed myself today and I was down from Saturday which rules and I still have three days to kick some butt. I am really hoping for a 3lb loss but knowing that aunty flow is around the corner I can't be that optimistic.

Well I better get back to work.

Oh one last thing! I started getting back into reading Harry Potter again and I'm really into Prisoner of Azkaban now. I can't wait to finish! We live near the Universal parks and Harry Potter world opens soon! We prob. won't go until October though. :)


mathilda said...

Hi Danielle...

I am sorry to hear you are having a rough time. However, you should give yourself props for not turning to junk food just because you are upset. I know I have done that in the past, and of course it makes me feel even worse.

Here is hoping you get a 3lb loss this week!

Danielle said...

@mathilda: Yeah, such is life I suppose! I didn't turn to junk which is great but my 4 point chocolate splurge caused me to go over points yesterday and I missed the gym b/c when I got there I realized I forgot my shoes! AHh!

Thanks! I'll be happy even with a 1lb loss!